So far this week hasn't been that great. It's just all of the crappy things building up inside my head and one day soon I know I'm going to explode 
I'm going out on saturday with some friends for a meal (It was one of my friends birthdays this week so it's sort of a birthday thing), but once again I have no money...but I feel like I have to go because I know she'll be pissed off if I don't 
Don't get me wrong, I really do want to go because it sounds good but I haven't got the money to go. My friends just don't seem to get the fact that I don't always have money like they do, and on the rare occasions that I do have money I don't really want to spend it because I want to save it so that it's not wasted 
The thing about certain friends is they seem to make me feel so guilty if I don't have the money to do something and it really does piss me off 
Just because their parents give them money left right and centre doesn't mean that everyone elses parents do that. They all get ema aswell....and I don't. So they just assume that I'm going to go scrounge money from my parents just so it'll make them happy....Well I'm tired of doing that 
I'm going to go out with them, but if I can't afford to eat and have to sit there then so be it. It'll just be proof that I can't afford everything like they can
