I hate myself for feeling like this :| I can't help it...I know I can't because I try so hard to be a happy, hyper person yet it just doesn't work. The thing is I'm not sure why I'm not happy :??: Nothing's completely terrible for me. So why is it I'm sitting here feeling so down, wanting to just give up :??: I honeslty don't know anymore. I'm tired of these mood swings, they make me irritable and I never know how I'm going to feel. It's too confusing for me. I wish I could somehow take this stupid self-pitying feeling away because it's driving me so crazy that I will end up doing something stupid :-/

There's nothing specific that's making me feel like this...It's like I have all the space in the world yet I still need room to breathe :| I just feel trapped inside my head and I can't quite claw my way out of these depressing thoughts. I want to get out...I really do. I need to...before it goes too far :**: