Tired, Stressed, Annoyed.
Haven't slept in a few days again. I'm so tired but I can never fall asleep. I hate it to be honest because I'm just worn out all the time...I have hardly any energy 
Even though I've had plenty of spare time due to not sleeping, I've still not managed to get any courswork done. My attention span sucks. I'll start typing stuff up then I'll get distracted and will forget all about my coursework 
But even when I do force myself to do some I never seem to finish it anyway. It doesn't help that people have been having a go at me over every little thing. I'm just like someone they especially bottle all their anger up for...Then when they release it I get blamed for everything even though half of the stuff I have no idea what they are talking about...There's just too much stress at the minute 
Annoyed...With everything really. Coursework is taking ages to do and I'm trying my hardest and obviously that's not good enough 
It really bugs me because I want to do well this year and I really am trying but nothing ever gets finished...Or if it does it's of rubbish quality.
I'm getting increasingly annoyed over the fact that I keep getting ignored and pushed away from everyone. It's like I'm suffocating under all these little things and I'm struggling to breathe...And then once I think I've got that hang of breathing something else comes along and weighs me down more than I already am 
I'm also annoyed at the fact that all anyone seems to do now is get angry with me. I don't think I'm a bad person...I try not to annoy people...But then I just constantly get abuse 
Doesn't help that Vati has to get his fucking head in and lectures me about every little thing. He hates the fact I'm not my brother and then because I'm not him I get shouted at and ridiculed for everything I do 
I need to breathe...
