Thoughts Of An Insomniac

Back to 6th form tomorrow after a week off I really don't want to go back. I hate it. The works to hard, I'm always on my own and I'm behind in almost all of my courses I've got science revision to do for tomorrow because Sarah's decided to give us a test

Been painting all afternoon and I've only managed to do 2 pictures. I paint so slowly No wonder I don't get anything done. I like what I've painted though...for once

I kept getting upset for no reason I just randomly start crying, but there's nothing that's making me want to cry though. It's really strange. I just feel down all the time

Still not sleeping. Which I'm kind of getting used to now, although it is extremely annoying and makes me want to scream.

Hope you're all ok

I've not blogged anything for a while, so I thought I would today considering I've had the day off from 6th form.

Not been feeling to great lately. I keep getting bad headaches and I just generally feel like shit  Not been sleeping again either I thought it had gotten better but I guess it's not...it's all making me feel worse. Got to go doctors about it all tomorrow....whoop-de-doo

6th form's kind of crap now. The novelty of it has worn off.  Don't really want to be there anymore, I just want to go somewhere else and do something different. But no I had to stay there because I'm too fucking scared to go off on my own still

Not really got anything to blog. What can I say.....my life's boring 

My head feels like it's about to explode Not sleeping is really taking its toll on me lately, and with all the added stress of 6th form I'm just feeling worse everyday

I've taken the afternoon off from 6th form so I could just chill out and have some time where I'm not stressing about everything. I did want to sleep but I've attempted that and it didn't quite work out I handed in my Lit essay and tried to speak to Kate about how I'm really struggling with the workload she's giving us and what response did I get?
A fucking lecture on how I must not be trying hard enough because everyone else can cope with the work
Well everyone else in my Lit class only does two courses. So basically they only go to 6th form for about 13 hours a week.
I have a whole 10 hours more work than they do, and I'm fucking struggling and not getting any help

I can't do it I don't even know why I bloody fooled myself into thinking I could
What a fucking idiot!