Thoughts Of An Insomniac

I didn't fail anything! *happy dances*
I'm so chuffed with myself

I got:
Maths C
Art C
Music C
Ict CC
English B
English lit B
Science BB

I'm so proud I didn't fail anything. I feel clever for once
And I did great considering I didn't actually do any coursework until just before my exams

Hope everyones having a great day
x

Got my haircut *happy dances*
It's made me happy YAY!
Picture Time!

You can't even see it properly but oh well....I like it

Finally booked an appointment to get my hair cut...after months of wanting it done YAY!

Anyway...
I've been meaning to post but I've had nothing to post about. I still don't really so here I go with my rambling

I've written some new songs for the band...finally after my case of writters block I'm not too sure whether I like them or not but they can be edited when we meet up tomorrow for practice. I'm just glad I've finally written something, I've been trying to for weeks but I've had no inspiration, then I had a massive mood swing last week which made me all depressed so I was feeling sorry for myself and wrote some songs.

Can't sleep again That's the sixth night in a row

I'm extremely hyper for some reason, which is very strange considering I'm really sleep deprived but oh well
Me and Lou have order Marilyn Manson tickets! *happy dances*
YAY!
That's made me sooo happy

Going to go into town and get some new guitar strings today I think.

Hope you all have a great day.

x

Once again I cannot sleep.
Staring at the ceiling has become extremely annoying and I have no idea what to do for the next 7 hours
Hmmmm...decisions, decisions

Once again I feel pretty down. It's been happening a lot lately. I went to see the doctor the other day about it and he just said it was down to my Bi-polar. It really does suck I hate feeling like shit yet I can't help it

I was talking to one of my close mates yesterday and she tried to get me to tell her what was wrong, but the thing is I can't. It didn't feel right telling her about everything that's going on in my head. I doubt she'd judge me for anything I would've said but I don't know, I guess that I'm so used to not talking to her about anything that when the time came and I actually needed to talk, I couldn't do it

It kind of upsets me that I can't talk to any of my friends. It's like I think they'll judge me for feeling like this. I know they probably couldn't help it, but I don't know, I'm not comfortable telling them things I don't even really feel comfortable being in a group with them any more. I love them, don't get me wrong, but it's like whenever we're all together it just feels akward, like they're all having a laugh and I'm the one who's trying to join in but is being left out I just don't feel part of the group anymore. I'm always trying to join in with everyone but I always end up being singled out and pushed away. I don't think they do it intentionally but it still hurts

I know I'm over-dramatic a lot of the time, and I know I moan about a lot of stuff, but I can't help it I try to be happy all the time, I honestly do, but there's just a big empty space inside of me and I don't know what it is that is missing