Posts archive for: April, 2007
  • Mistakes....I've Made A Few

    I have just realised how stupid I am

    I'm going on holiday soon with most of vati's side of the family. Now ordinarily I wouldn't care too much, but I've just realised that there will be no way to hide the scars and cuts on my arm. That is unless I wear sweat bands for the whole two weeks....and that will look suspicious :-/ I don't want them to know. It's not like I can just say "oh...a cat scratched me" because it's fairly obvious they're not cat scratches :**:

    I'm a fucking dickhead :## Why the fuck did I have to do it again? I have just caused a whole heap of problems for myself. How am I going to explain to vati what the heck happened to my arm? He's not going to believe me...shit :(

  • Daytime TV And Toast

    I got kicked out of school today (Well not kicked out, but I got sent home. Kicked out just sounds better :yes:)
    Gina kept telling me my piercings "are not acceptable" :roll: so I told her to fuck off, and then I got sent home for it! :##
    How fucking pathetic!

    Oh well, I had a lovely day of sitting around in my pj's eating toast and watching crappy talk shows!
    Ash visited me at dinner :>> It was great we just sat watching ricky lake, because me and Ash are totally cool like that haha
    That boy makes me :D lots!

    Hope you had a good day :)

  • Familiar breath of my old lies

    Why is it that when someone asks me how I am I can never tell them the truth?

    Today I saw Chris for the first time in a few weeks. (Chris is my ex, we went out but decided to just be mates). We were just chatting about everything and he's doing great :) His band's had more than a few gigs since the last time we spoke and they're planning on making an album soon. I'm so proud of him :>>
    But when he asked me how I was I just said "I'm great, things have been great" when really all I wanted to do was tell him how I feel like crap and then just cry in his arms :**:

    It's made me realise how much I miss him being here to comfort me when I've had a shit day :`( We used to be inseperable but now we hardly speak and when we do I feel like I'm no longer good enough to be his friend :( He's just so happy and is such a good person that I don't want to tell him what's going on with me because then he'll realise that I'm not good enough.

    I miss him :**:

  • 3 Little Stalkers

    What is it with people fucking stalking me and my friends at school?! I mean are we that interesting :??:

    So me and my friends have 3 little stalkers. It's actually quite pathetic how they follow us around at dinner time and then they shout stuff at us because we're 'the goths' of the school. They don't even know what goth's are :roll: They must have no life.
    I just think it's quite hillarious how they think we're going to be hurt by what they say :)) I mean their stupid little comments can't fucking hurt us?! I'm just fed up of seeing them everywhere we go. It's like "FUCK OFF WE DON'T GIVE A SHIT! STOP STALKING US!>:XX"
    They seriously do my head in :##

    I was in a well bad mood after I flipped out at the little brats but Ashley drew me a batman picture to cheer me up :D I love Ash, he makes me smile lots :>>

    Hey look! I'm moaning again! That's all I seem to do lately.

  • Please be sure to read the fine print

    Mood = :'( :-/ >:XX
    So it was the return to the craphole today. I suppose you could say it's been a very 'eventfull' day.

    I didn't sleep again. I think that's like the 4th night in a row. It's really beginning to get on my nerves. After about half an hour of putting it off, I finally decided to get my fat-ass up and drag myself to meet ry, and he was in a fucking mood with me again. I seriously do not get that guy. I have done nothing to upset him yet he bloody insists on being a mardy git towards me, but as soon as we met up with the others he was all happy and smiley. I mean seriously, talk about a mood swing :**:

    So anyway, everyone went weird when I told them about the visit to the doctor and stuff :**: They all seemed really quiet with me, apart from tash that is, she was being her usual nutter-self :D
    I think that they all think I'm mental. Most of them were avoiding me for most of the day. I knew this would happen if I told them :( I'm such a fucking idiot, I saw it comming and I still chose to throw myself under a bus (not litterally of course :P)
    Arrrggghh, Why am I such a fucking idiot? :## I knew I shouldn't of said anything. I wish I'dve kept it to myself now, then everyone wouldn't be acting weird with me. They all probably think I'll flip out and try to kill them or something :**: I'm such a dick.

  • Adoption. The New Trend?

    It seems that over the past year adopting children from less fortunate countries has become a 'trend' to celebrities. Now don't get me wrong, I am not criticising adopting a child from a struggling country, but it seems as if babies are becoming must have 'accesories' for celebrities.

    Madonna has recentley revealed that she plans to adopt another child from Malawi. This is merely months after she adopted David Banda, now 18 months old, from an orphanage in Malawi. It just seems that she's rushing this adoption. I'm more than sure she has very honourable intentions, but what you've got to consider is the well being of the child involved.
    When David was adopted, there was a lot of outrage that it was dealt with so quickly. More than likely the adoption was 'rushed' because of Madonna's status in society. But this seems very unfair, as normal adoption takes a lot longer.

    Another celebrity who has taken to adopting from different countries is Angelina Jolie. Of course I admire both Angelina and Madonna for their kind and loving nature and their want to make a difference in the lives of un-privelledged children. But from the way the media has portrayed the stars adoption, it seems as if their main focuss is on their adoptive children rather than their biological children. This however may not be the case, as the media often only shows what they want you to believe.

    In an interview Angelina said about the different love she feels for her kids:
    “I think I feel so much more for Madd and Zee because they’re survivors, they came through so much. Shiloh seemed so privileged from the moment she was born. I have less inclination to feel for her...I met my other kids when they were 6 months old, they came with a personality. A newborn really is this...Yes, a blob! But now she’s starting to have a personality...I’m conscious that I have to make sure I don’t ignore her needs, just because I think the others are more vulnerable.”

    I found this extremely shocking. If any other mother said this, there would be a lot of criticism directed towards her and more than likely social services would become involved.

    Through the media Angelina is portrayed as a bad person because she says that she felt more towards her adoptive children because they were not born with the privelledges Shilou was. Angelina is a wonderful mother I'm sure. It's very clear that she loves ALL her children. From what I can gather Angelina seems like such a loving and caring person and she just wants to help those less fortunate than herself.

    Madonna also seems like a loving and caring person, but does she really have the best intentions at heart when it comes to the new adoption she is planning? The uproar that occured when David was adopted will more than likely be repeated. Madonna seems to be taking on a lot of responsibilty by adopting another child. I personally think it would be best to wait a while before she adopts again. After all she has to consider the well being of her other children before she goes off to 'collect' another baby.

  • You're My Darkest Secret

    I haven't posted for a while so I thought it's about time to post something because if I don't then I never will.

    Well things have been pretty shitty as of late. Mutti forced me to see a doctor (The person I hate....he has something against me) because I've not been sleeping again. Now I'm on more tablets...whoop-de-doo, just what I want :roll: And I've also been told I have Bipolar Disorder. I don't even know too much about it to be honest, I just know the basics, and now people I thought cared about me think I'm a freak :**: Some easter holiday this is turning out to be.

  • Judge Me Judy

    Why is it that people judge you without knowing a thing about who you are :??: Don't get me wrong, in the past I have judged people without knowing them, but I've learnt that the bitchiest looking person can also be the sweetest :)

    It just annoys me how someone thinks they know what type of person I am just by the music I listen to or the things I do. As if to say "Now I know what you like I'm going to stereotype you!" :## You can't assume things about people just because of the things they like. It's like saying "Oh you like rap music so you must be some sort of thug" :-/ It's fucked up to be honest. I know most people don't judge others on purpose, but it amazes me how easy is it to assume things about people without actually taking the time to see who they really are? I'll be the first to admit I do it, never on purpose though.....but does that really make me any better than people who do do it on purpose? I think not.

    I know I ramble on a lot. And I'm sorry for boring you with my opinions and all that crap...

  • popularity? I'd rather sell my soul

    Does everything have to be a fucking popularity contest?
    It's like no-one actually cares about real things anymore. All they care about is who likes them and how many friends they've got.
    To be honest I couldn't give a shit. I'd rather be myself and have one friend who likes me for me, than be a fake and have loads of friends who have no idea who I really am.

    rant over :>>

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