Why is it that when finally something in life is going right, something else fucks up and leaves you feeling like shit? 
I just got back from talking to a friend I fucked things up with, and we've said we are going to make an effort to become good mates again 
I know I've got to earn his trust back again, and I'm more than willing to do that because after all it's my fault we fell out anyway. So anyway like I was saying. I just got back and was in a good mood until I came home 
Vati was pissed off for some reason and took it out on me (again 
) He says I'm always getting in the way. He can go fuck himself. I am not in the way. Maybe I somehow inconvenience his life but so what...i am his 'enkeli' after all. Yeah right 
I haven't been his enkeli for at least 10 years. I'm the brat that gets in his way. Well that's how he sees it anyway. He shouldn't fucking take everything out on me. And he wonders why the fuck I wanna move out 
Fucking life....Something is always fucked up in it. I sound completely pathetic for moaning about stuff because things could be a lot worse and I should be grateful that it's not worse. But it still doesn't help me from feeling like shit
