Thoughts Of An Insomniac

So everything's been a bit hectic lately. I've been rushing around finishing things off for college and now I'm just glad to be having a break from it all

Had another driving lesson today...I'm pretty sure that I'm quite good now My instructor doesn't have to remind me of things anymore because I do it automatically. Hopefully I'll be taking my test in a few weeks...fingers crossed

I've been looking into doing a music course next year. I'm hoping that 6th form will run it so I can do it alongside the second year of my photography course and my business IT course.

Speaking of photography...I've been doing a 30secrets30days thing on flickr. Kept it up for 23 days in a row. Quite suprised at that really. Feel free to have a nosey
My Flick Page

Hope everyone's having a good day

Today seems to have been a day to re-think a lot of things...The main thing being college.

Once again I'm at the point in the year where I need to decide what I want to do next year. Do I go back and put up with college for another year just in hopes of getting another 2 A Levels Do I try and get a job over the summer Do I try and send in a late application for Uni Do I not do any of those things and focus on my music
So many choices and each choice has its benefits and downfalls.

At this point I'm not sure what would be best for me. I think that having an extra 2 A Levels would be better in the long run but how do I know that music won't work if I don't try Or could I do both things at once

I hate having to make decisions. They always seem to creep up on you at the worst times (even though they're really always at the back of your mind) and leave you feeling almost regretful no matter which path you choose to take

Hope everyone else is having a good day though

So today I went to donnington market and Ikea with my brother and his girlfriend Been a lovely day for it! Really hot and sunny...I like
I ended up coming home with 100 tealights, tealight holders and a random alarm clock. I didn't need any of those things. Amazing what Ikea can do to a person

Currently I'm obsessed with Eminem's new album He's such a lyrical genius in my opinion. I love his way with words and how he's so honest in his songs. Hopefully I'll be able to go see him when he tours!

Hope everyone's had a lovely sunday

Hey all
Just got home. Been shopping with my mum. Whoever said money can't buy happiness was telling porkies because frankly I'm a little bit happier now I've brought clothes I think I'm becoming a bit of a shopaholic

Once again I'm at a point where I just want to get back into a band again. I love music...it's my passion, it forms my opinions and it's my biggest addiction It's stressful sometimes that I'm just not at the point where I know people who are so passionate about it aswell. Hopefully something will come along soon

Hope everyone is having a good day so far

So instead of posting some pictures from my birthday (looking back they're too embarrassing!) I thought that I would post some photographs that I have taken
Hope that you all enjoy them!

So I've not been on here for a while...I just checked my last post. It was written 87 days ago. Whoops
I don't really tend to think to come on here as much as I used to. I always say that I'll make an effort when I eventually come back, yet I never seem to
Hopefully this time is different

So a lot has happened! But I'll just stick to the basics for now or else this'll take forever!
I turned 18! Finally...never thought I'd see the day Been out a lot since, although I can't really afford it I might post another blog later with pictures from my birthday and such!

I'm currently learning how to drive! I love it Just had another driving lesson today actually. Had about 8/9 so far...hopefully I'll be taking me test in no time

I quit one of my colleges...It was making me too miserable and I just thought that life's too short to be unhappy I have enough qualifications already to get me into a decent university on a course I'd be interested in, so I didn't see the point in being miserable when I didn't have to be

That's pretty much a basic outline of what's been happening...Yes I know, My life is too exciting

Hope everyone's been good and having a good year so far!

Just got in...
Last night/this morning was good. I now have lovely smooth skin thanks to Amy
Will probably write more about it later but I'm going to try and get some sleep.
Night

So once again I haven't written anything in a while
Christmas was good...got a new electric acoustic guitar which I've been pretty much permanently playing since christmas morning
New years eve wasn't so great...my plans fell through and then I spent most of the night drunk, alone and crying. Great way to bring in the New Year

So I'm back at college, and hating it as usual I would quit but it seems too pointless to now so I might as well just stick it out until June/July and get some qualifications. Good thing though is that my 6th form makes us do work experience every year and I've been given a placement at Jessops...and what makes it even better is that it's literally a 2 minute walk from my house I'm actually looking forward to going there because it's something that I'm interested in, so I'm hoping that it will be good.

Bad thing about the past few weeks...my insomnia is back. I've been functioning on around an hours sleep a night, or should I say morning, and it's beginning to get ridiculous again It wouldn't be so bad if I could entertain myself by playing my guitar...but I can't because I have to be quiet for everyone else in the house. It's at times like these I wish I lived alone

How is everyone?
Hope you are all doing good and hope everyone had a great Christmas and New Year

I've realised that I try too hard to please everyone...Even when they've been a complete arse to me.
I think that I'm too nice...Contrary to 'popular' belief.
People just seem to take advantage of that 'niceness'. I think I need to just stop trying to please people.

So once again I haven't wrote in a while. Not much of a suprise seeing as my life in general isn't that exciting, so there's not exactly much to write about.
But it is about time for an 'update' I guess

College isn't going so well. I hate it but then I just think that there is absolutely no point in quitting at this point because there's only really a few months left. I'm going to stick it out and hope I don't come out with the grades that I'm being predicted (which incidently if I do get them, wouldn't have been worth staying there for)

I quit my band...I guess if you wanted to put it nicely you could say it was due to "creative differences" I wasn't happy and just didn't see the point in staying in a band that would just ultimately make me miserable. Got to look out for 'number one' sometimes I guess
It doesn't mean I'm quitting the whole music thing though. I'm still writing just as much (if not more) and playing guitar. I wouldn't quit music for anything. It's my life...No stupid band 'bust up' will stop that

I've begun to question a few of my friendships with people. I think that I rushed into a lot of them without actually considering what the people were really like, and now I seem to be stuck with a few people who only want to know me when they want something I think that lately I've just begun to try and look out for myself a bit more rather than just sit back and be walked all over I haven't quite decided if it's working out yet or not. Only time will tell.

As of now I'm going to try and write on here more...I know I've said that before but this time I intend to at least try I miss writing like this...just getting stuff out of my head, So I think it'd be good to start doing it again.

Hope everyone's been well xxxx